“Building a castle with broken bricks for the foundation is bound to fall. I’ve preferred being alone since I was a kid. My parents separated when I was 2 and I wasn’t able to bond with them. I live with my mother. It’s been a year since my father and I last spoke. The absence of a father doesn’t really bother me.

I’ve been depressed for most of my life. Most days are dark, filled with numbness, negativity and grimness. I’m tired of nothing and everything at the same time and battle the urge to hurt myself every day. I’m a prisoner of my own thoughts. I was 11 when I first felt this. I tried to reach out to people but I was shut out. So I started closing myself off. I haven’t sought professional help yet because I don’t want to bother anyone with my problems.

I suffered negligence and physical and emotional abuse in my childhood. I even slept in ATM stalls, school benches and under wooden stairs when I was a teenager. I had unresolved abandonment issues leading to a phobia of places that trapped me. My then-girlfriend was there for me and helped me a lot. But she isn’t here anymore. She was very sick and needed a lot of help. I don’t even remember the 3 months after she left, there’s not a day I don’t think about her. I was on substances to numb the pain. Although I’m trying to move on, I’m scared to get close to anyone.

However, I’m grateful for the support I do have which keeps me going. I’ve felt the pain it causes people when someone close to you leaves, I don’t want to do that to people. I make music and read tarot cards. These things help me use up my pent-up emotions and help people connect with themselves. I hope I can help others. I’m moving ahead but only time will tell if it’s a better place. I seek spiritual help and also meditate. I want to work hard to help my family and not burden them.

I feel that most people don’t consider mental health issues important because they haven’t experienced them. I want them to know that people suffering from these issues also have feelings and emotions.”

Humans of Thimphu with YPEER Asia Pacific Center -Ypeer AP brings stories of young people suffering from Mental Health issues in hopes of bringing #MHEmpowermentForEveryone

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